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My first encounter with mental breakdown was unknown to me.I was immature back then to realise if something was wrong.I was fifteen when I first encountered body shaming & slut shaming.I had a big friend circle, but luckily I had a bff who knew every single inch of me.The only person who saw me when I cried,when I let myself fall into darkness every single day.When every person talked me about the acne on my face & how I should loose a few pounds to look the conventional "pretty",he was the person who held my face & told me to keep going.My world fell apart the day I lost him.God took him to heaven & I couldn't be more heartbroken.Since then,I have been suffering with 'death anxiety' which basically refers to fear of losing a loved one.I have encountered deaths of family persons for straight 3-4 years in gaps of 6 months.I never realised until I met this person online,who could read my eyes through pictures.He was diagnosed with clinical depression.He told me that I could heal him & nothing makes me happier than that.He was literally my backbone .Until he found somebody else. This basically taught me few lessons.I had to go through immense pain,in the last two years.I have cried holding my hand close to my chest begging my heart to stop aching.I have dealt with this ALONE.I did not have the guts to walk to a psychiatrist until last year.She prescribed me medicines & I'm healing every single day. I literally don't fear body shaming(even though I still encounter it at times).Later on, I found the right person to invest my efforts to & life's getting better.

My heart goes out to every single person reading this,I know this might sound like fiction but it's not.Yes I have been going to a psychiatrist & yes I take medicines for my mental health,I'm not ashamed, neither should you.Your mental health matters, EVERYDAY.

I request y'all to stop taking your loved ones for granted.There's no tomorrow guaranteed.I was in a fight when I lost my best friend & I regret that.I wish I didn't let him go to sleep without sorting things out.

MAKE YOUR LOVED ONES FEEL GOOD AS MUCH AS YOU CAN. :)

Extensively edited by - @blossoming_glory

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